Most of my life has been spent trying to shrink myself. Trying to become smaller. Quieter. Less sensitive. Less opinionated. Less needy. Less me. Because I didn’t want to be a burden. I didn’t want to be too much or push people away. I wanted people to like me. I wanted to be accepted. I wanted to be cared for and valued. I desperately wanted to be appreciated . So for years, I sacrificed myself for the sake of making others people happy. For years i lived my life pleasing others. For years i served tirelessly. And for years, I suffered, was insulted, falsely accussed, spiritually attacked and frustrated . Then suddenly i realised in my bible my worth, my calling, my right. My eyes began to open as i see deep revelations from God’s word daily. It suddenly flashed. BOMB… I WAS LIVING A LIE. I became tired of suffering, and absolutely done shrinking. It’s not my job to change who I am in order to become someone else’s idea of a worthwhile human being. I am worthwhile. Not because other people think I am, but because I exist, and therefore I matter. Largely because i began to realise my existance was from God.
My worth, my worth, my worth is bigger than what my small mind thought.
I AM WORTH MORE THAN RUBIES.
MY FATHER SAID TO ME “NKY, MANY OF MY DAUGHTERS HAVE DONE ABSOLUTELY WELL BUT YOU MY DEAR, HAS EXCEL THEN ALL”.
SO WHY SHOULD I BE IN COMPETITION WITH ANY FOOL.
HE SAID ITS NOT ABOUT BEAUTY BECAUSE YOU ARE MORE, NOT ABOUT FAVOUR, FOR IT IS DECEIT BECAUSE NOT ALL THAT GLITTERS ARE GOLD. BUT BECAUSE MY FOUNDATION AND TRUST IS LARGELY ON HIM MY LORD, HE SAID TO ME ” NKY YOU SHALL BE PRAISED AND YOU WILL BE GREAT”.
Today i am worth more than 7 sons.
Today i am worth more than they beauty pageants.
Today i am worth more than billions of dollars.
Today i am worth more than their statues.
Today i am worth more than eye could see.
I AM A GIANT. I AM A SHINNING STAR. I AM WHO GOD SAYS I AM!
AND THATS ALL THAT MATTERS.
THEY NEED ME MORE THAN I NEED THEM.
AND GUESS WHAT I AM STILL IN THE PROCESS. I HAVEN’T ARRIVED YET BUT I HAVE GOT SO MUCH PRESENCE.
FOR JESUS IS STILL ON THE THRONE SO MY END SHALL BE MORE GLORIOUS!